Sorry blogspot..

Tumblr's taking over. Maybe I'll update this from time to time,
but I'll warn ya: it's not gonna be often.

Get in my mind at www.mmmarvie.tumblr.com 

Just because

July has been such a nice month to me! Haha. I got 8 more days left of summer school left, and about 4? more weeks left of the summer break! Anyways, Thursday was nicee! Had a party for 4th of July. It was sooo unnecessary. But hey, it was good. I didn't have school on Friday, ... why?! Because it was my mom's birthday. I made her some brownies. 

4th of July. It was pretty good. Went to Ala Moana with Nicole, Mary, Scott, and Timmy. Other people was suppose to get invited but there wasn't any space. So it was just the 5 of us. We were suppose to go to Fitted, but by the time we got to Ala Moana side, it was closed. Parking took forever! When we finally got inside, all we did was walk around and eat. We went into Betsey Johnson and there was a sale x_x laaaaaame. Oh well. Anyways, we walked across to go to the beach, it was my first time going there for 4th of July. Kinda sucked because we didn't have a blanket to sit down on and it drizzled a little. OH, and the show was kinda like..... gay too. It was gay, to be honest. It only lasted about 20 minutes and the finale sucked. I guess I expected too much, but whatever. After that, we met up with Carlo. I haven't seen him since whaat.... 7th grade! He... omg, I don't know. Nvm. Haha. Shit. Ok. Well, we went to Zippys in Kalihi. The boys ate. Then we chilled at Marilyn's house. Thank God she had her sister's phone, cause if she didn't, we would've had nothing to do! So yeah, popped fireworks at that park in Waikele since her house is right next to it. Played "Hide-N-Seek" at the park, hahaha. Yeah.... Not all of us. Then Nicole, Mary, and Timmy bought McDonalds. Played Speed. Nicole made a bonfire. Laughed about Megan Fox's thumb. And went home at 1. It was pretty chill.

Today, I was suppose to go to church with my brudduhs.... but there wasn't any parking, and we were already late, so we just met up at Genkis. William, Sean them didn't really stay long though. So it was just me and Kevin. So all we did was talk stories, went to Walmart, then Baskin Robins. 

Tomorrow..... maybe shopping?, but I doubt it. Tuesday, Bible Study? 

7/10: Group Presentation

7/11: Linel's Sweet Sixteen

7/13: Last day of SS!

7/14: Pick up report card/Tantalus?

7/18: Noni's Grad Party

7/21: SURFING!

7/23: =[ 

7/25: Patrick's Grad Party

7/27: Appt!

So...... this month.... is gonna end kinda lame... eehhhhhhhh, let's see how this goes..

Schoool schmoool

I'm blogging cause I'm sick, bored, and got no life.

School is going great for me, I just finished a semester within the past 2 weeks. My teacher gave me my report card, and I'm getting a A- :P At least it's an A right. Haha. Shit. I bombed one test thats why. Could've gotten an A+. But I'm fine with what I got. I'm happy that nowadays, I could have endless conversations with the people in my class, most of them is upcoming sophomores. Since we're on this subject, I'm an upcoming junior. That's cool. Ha. Nah. I got one more highschool year left! So fast. I can't wait. OH. Well, most of you guys are probably wondering why I'm still here, if you know what I mean. If you do, I'll just say, that it's most likely that I'll stay here for the rest of my highschool life. In a way, it's good, in another way, it's lame. There was soo many times where my parents would always tell me that their decision is serious, but nah, whatever. I'm here now, so it doesn't matter. Then again, it's lame cause I went through alot of shit because of that. BUT I CAME THROUGH. And it doesn't matter anymore, so suck it and shut up. So back to talking about school and stuff, I want to share to you guys about what I plan to do after highschool. To be honest, I don't know WHAT specifically I want to be. Which sucks. But I'll try figure it out by December, so I can start early planning for college. As for colleges, I'm thinking about taking a community college first. LCC? Yeah yeah yeah "Last Chance College". So erking. It's a college, just let me be. For me, when I think about going straight to an university college, it kinda like freaks me out a bit. Yeahh, I like the challenge, going straight to an university college, being serious and what not, but I just feel more comfortable going to a community college. And at the same time, it might not even be at LCC, or maybe it might not even be on this island. IDK. I still got time to think about it. Maybe I'll change my mind about going to an university college, straight after high school, maybe not. We'll see..

ANYWAYS. I can't wait til Sunday. I'm going to spend time with William, maybe, and Kevin! I haven't talk to big bruh yet about it, but hopefully he'll come through! I haven't seen him since his graduation day!

Half way there..

So I haven't blogged for about a few weeks now and I just realized lately that I gotta update you people that actually take the time to read this thing, ha. So here it goess..

Since my cousin Nicole is down here for most of the summer, she's the reason why I've been so  busy. I missed her so much, shhit. So far, I'm having soo much fun. See, I told you guys, summer school isn't stopping me. Summer's doing me goood. Our days consisted of the craziest memories, nights, and tons of laughs together. She met Scott, and I'm soo happy that they get along together. Yesterday, I stayed home after school to sleep because I was still tired from spending time with Bruce the day before; and Nicole, Timmy, and Scott chillled together without me! Nicole told me how it went, and it was pretty cool how she told me how much they all got along. Other than that, my sister, Godfather, brudduh, and my other favorite '09 seniors graduated alrrrrready! Their life's finally starting for them, it's crazy. I remember when some of them were just freshmans, and their high school life flew by so fast :P I'm so happy for them. Anyways, I didn't get to go to the carnival and a few graduation parties, XP soo that sucked for me. But then again, my cousins from SD are down here for the week, so I'm looking forward to this weekend. Plans for the weekend is to try and make it to Timmy's GParty, watch Transformers 2, and go to Tantalus!.... But I doubt Tantalus will come through. Haha, it's ok. July's still going to be there. Talking about July, I heard N. Korea's going to bomb us on.. -__-  July 3rd. Haha. Ok. Sorry, off subject. Anyway, so far, I've watched "Drag Me to Hell", "The Hangover", and "YEAR ONE" haha. I'm so exicted to watch "Transformers 2", "Bruno", and "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince"! Movies nights = date nights, for me, at least, haaaaaaaaa no. Well, going back to how my summer's going, I'll just say that it's going great, surprisingly without the parties O_O but hey, July's filled with parties :] can't wait for that. Back to my summer days, I haven't spent much time with my brudduhs, and my Godfather, and at church :X ahhhhhhhhh. Only bible study last week. I haven't gone to mass there for a long time. Big Bruh was suppose to take me and Lil Big Bruh to church this past Sunday, but I couldn't make it cause that was the day my cousins from SD came down XP It was bittersweet.

Hmm.. other than summer, SUMMER SCHOOL is going GREAT. I'm getting a B+ though -__- but.. I know if, oh wait, I mean, when I get an A on Friday's test, then it'll bring it up. Can't wait til Friday! That would mean that I'm halfway done with summer school and there's going to be a... pizza party! ....... Haha. Yeah, wtf, pizza party. But yeah, this week's going by fast. July's going to be filled with mami's bday on July 3rd, parties, last day of summah school on the 13th!, and sadly July 23rd :[ Nicole's last day here in Hawaii. 

Well, since I finally updated this thing, I honestly don't know whens the next time I'll do it again. Maybe soon, maybe not. You can probably find me on twitter.com/mmmarvie, stalk me there. Hah. Mk. Imma end it here. Catch me on twitter!

I just realized I left alot of things out from how my summer's doing me, but oh well, you don't need to know everything. Sorry. Ha. KEHHHHHH!

MAY summer cut in line!?

May 1: HSA Assembly/MS's project photoshoot
May 5: First Draft Due TYPED
May 6: C&C F's Bday
May 7: Story Board/May Fair
May 8: Marilyn's House
May 9: C&C F's bday party
May 11: Last Day for Confirmation?/ TeenBiz (20)entries Due
May 12: Sketch Design Due
May 13: Dress Rehearsal for GSHP
May 14: Chapter 15-20 DG Quiz
May 15: GSHP
May 16: CONFIRMATION
May 18: Last Day for Confirmation! [10 MORE IC TO GO!!!!!!!!]
May 19: World History Monument/ Final Comic Strip Due[5 MORE IC TO GO!!!!!!!!]
May 20: JPN Unit 6 Test
May 21: Final GSH Project Due ???/ Dorian Gray Presentation/ Homegirl Nishalei/GKAD's Bday
May 22: FINISHED ICs! :)
May 23: St. Louis Graduation
May 23: SHA Graduation
May 24: Damien Graduation
May 25: Memorial Day
May 26: Domestic Issues Essay Due/ Schedule C?
May 27: Listening&Speaking JPNTest/ Jayson's going-away party/ Awards Night

May 28: Predator Prey Simulation - Data Table due
May 29: Senior Farewell - Last Day for WHS Seniors :'( / Collin's bday/Radford Graduation
May 30: Pearl City Graduation/ Rowena's Graduation Party
May 31: Mililani Graduation

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June 1: Final GSH Story Draft DUE! 

June 2: Zebra Power Point DUE!/ MS's bday

June 3: LOES House BBQ

June 4: Cousin Nicole's coming down! :]

June 5: Reading log #2 DUE
June 6: Campbell's/Farrington Graduation
June 7: WAIPAHU HIGH SCHOOL Graduation

June 8: Last Day of School!/ Christopherson's bday
June 15: Summer School Starts! >:] (don't need to, but wants it)
June 20: Cousin Karen's Bday!
June 21: Father's Day

It's simple

You shouldn't miss me because there was never an 'us'. 

It could go vice versa, but I mean, in reality, 

I'm not feeling the way you're feeling right now. Sowweee.

But then again, in several months, I could find myself in a daze about the past(which could be right now), and thinking "shoulda, coulda, woulda" while knowing that I could've gotten a second chance of a beginning of 'sumthinn' back then(which would be right now).. BUT it'll be okay. I'll get over it then. It's life. Haaaaaaa. 

You should get with the program now, before it eats you up.

As it goes for all of them, "if we were meant to be, then we will be" - whether it's now or later. So please... you know what to do.

...As for this, it goes to you too.

Catch me when you can

On my mind: Lately, I've been thinking alot. Making myself think about what I want to believe in and what not. My mind has been convincing my soul that I'll make things happen, but my soul has always been telling me that it'll be finneeeee. It's simply stupid. Don't get me wrong, this happened before, my mind and soul going back and forth with each other. But seriously... this is stupid. 

In my life: I can't believe summer is here already. I'm so excited for school to end, Nicole to get her ass down here, graduations and parties, summer school - that'll be worth it, long nights - even if they're on school nights!, beach/pool days, and hopefully other interesting surprises come up - good or bad, it'll be worth it! 

To you: You front like you never felt a thing. So catch me when you can. 

Not feeling it?

Since they do/still/wonder, do you?

Oh wait. It slipped out of my mind for a second.
You're noting like them. It seemed as if you lost your self-consciousness.
Good job, mad praise.

Back up

I like my space. Give me some space and stop being paranoid. I'm not yours, stupid.

"If I were you, I'd wanna be me too."

"whats up with that, yo' girl is duplicating yo' cyber style 'n everyythin, bonita"



- It's okay, I understand where she's coming from >;]

Bad habit

Mister, can you please help me get rid of this bad habit?

SCARRED

These kind of boys will always be boys.

Grown apart

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless—it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable."

"To me, I feel like I see that your heart grew unbreakable, impenetrable, and irrdeemable because of your own mind that grew you and your heart apart." 

Oh, how nice............................................

N Y A

Look at you

REMEMBER!











You're erking.

Happy Mother's Day

It's 3:34pm.

The whole day, I spent making my mom some red velvet cupcakes. Hope she likes it. Other than making it, it's either I was eating or watching The Mummy Returns. I should be getting ready for church now.

Oh gosh, school tomorrow. The rest of this month's gonna be a hustle. But can can.

Always was

a fairy, just like you.

OH YES!!!!!!!!

On April 5th. That day. I wasn't the only one. Another COUPLE witnessed it too. "Omg, how to do know that?!". I got my sources >:] I want you to know one more thing.. You better check out one of your boys, cause he's filling me with sources that could take it all AWAYYYYYYYYYYY! =)

UH HUH

You're stupid.

Only faggets do that shit.



when THAT day comes i'll reach cloud 9...... >:]
til then, as of NOW, SORRY BOUT IT K!

Hoo yea

Dumb ass. How come you didn't look at me today! I missed your pretty fucking ugly ass eyes looking into my eyes. And what happened to your car!?! OH wait, I remember. You got pulled over 4 days ago! I'm sorry to hear that :]

Status check!

Getting there

Today was a good day.

This morning, Mark picked me up then dropped me off to school. School was crazy. Lol. Did the usual on friday mornings. Photography's lame though, my picture needs to be developed in a specific way because my exposures are off, but it's okay, I'll get it done, I got it. Ha. World History and Health flew by fast. We had to dress out though for Heath because of our GSH project XP did backflips and other ninja moves. LUNCH topped off my school day. Thank you Cherline and Bradley for helping with my project, lol. Soo nice. I'm so happy that's over and done with! After that was "japanese", it was boring. Haaaaaaaaaaaaa. Anyways, I went home right after school, I didn't feel like going to the spot to somethin somethin. I didn't have anyone to go with anyways. When I got home, just talked to Scott for awhile then Michelle Santos called. She asked me if I wanted to be part of her business project thing and get alllllllll dolled up for a photoshoot and other fun girly stuff with Jam. I was glad to! So I got ready real fast, then Michelle and Jam picked me up and we headed to Patrick's house. Got dolled up and ready. We were suppose to shoot in Kunia, I think, but plans changed to town side because Michelle needed to turn in her scholarship thingy at the airport. Michael drove us, he's a crazy driver. That's what me and Jam think, at least, lol. We met up at the post office over there to meet up with Patrick, Abcde, Kenneth, and Lan. Then we decided to shoot in Chinatown near that "OMG WTF" wall. We tried finding it, but we couldn't. It took us awhile, so we gave up. Then we tried parking in the parking place, but it was full. Then we just decided to walk the strip and park at the Zoo. Lol. When we got to Waikiki, we just did our thang. From the motorcycles, to the bench, to the sidewalks, to the Mariott stairs, to across the street near the beach. Lol. It was fun. We headed back after that. Dropped off Jam home. We were suppose to at McDonalds or something, we were all tired so chilled at Patrick's house for awhile and he cooked for us. I ate a bowl of egg which was berrrnice. After that, me and Abcde had to go already so Michael and Michelle dropped us off. Soooo yeah, just got home. Tomorrow is Jazmyn and Jordyn's bday party, I'm sooooooo looking forward to that! Oh yeeh, and in the morning, I'm going to Kapolei to drop off my summer school app., so that I don't have to worry about doing a math credit on my senior year! :] Soo I'm looking forward to that as well.

OMG, btw, about the Swine flu, hopefully it doesn't hit Hawaii, that would totally blow my plans! :(((((((((

Anyways, I'm getting tired. Soo I'll be off to bed now. I just though I'd share what I did today because I have done a blog like this for awhile.

THIS IS INTERESTING

Wednesday, April 29
You are going to have to make an adjustment in your attitude towards someone you care for. Have you done everything you could? Or have you done too much? Only you can decide where the proper balance lies. Don't let someone demanding come between you and your loved ones.

Lucky Numbers
14, 16, 33, 39, 43, 48
Compatible Sign
Libra

Sorry about it

Ain't your baby, never was, fool, never was.

I don't know where we're going

but I know we're going somewhere

It's amazing how..

I haven't chased you away yet. You listened to my words and you're still here.




You've been here, always. Thanks, dear.

How nice

I got 7 years bad luck!

INCREDIBLY

Ooou, I'm scared

Yeah right.

ILY SBIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They're real lucky

"Relationships don't work they way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won't they? And then they finally do, and they're happy forever. Gimme a break. Nine out of ten of them end because they weren't right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I'm telling you right now, through all this stuff I have not become a cynic. I haven't. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y'know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line: it's couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don't let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it's right, and they're real lucky, one of them will say something." - Dr. Perry Cox 

Oh please

Your actions speak louder than your words. 

I have all the right

to say what I want to say. Because you do whatever you want like YOU have all the right.

For you:

You couldn't defeat the purpose unless I allowed to recgonize it for you..

You wouldn't defeat the purpose unless I allowed to recgonize it for you..

I wanted you to.

Really, nobody has been so far in knowing what I've told.

You should've.

But nothing matters though right. 

I'm saving the best for last. Don't worry. Just do what you do. Don't worry.

Juuuusss ketchhhhhhup with me later! I'll be there.

For you:

You can't say you're happy either.

Headache mode,

again. Whaaaaaaat the haaaaaaaaaaaaaaillllll.

Something you forgot

Manipulation is the key.
Seriously.. Did you not remember that one night in the back of the parking lot; when you explained to me how big I was to you; and when at the stop light, how I told you what YOUR NOT to me? You must've MISTAKEN me. You read me alllll wrong. Don't get me wrong, I never forgot about that.

I mean really, you want that? If you honestly, truly do, then by all means go to whatever you like. By that, all YOUR words that came out of your mouth that which were intentionally given out for MY ears don't mean anything at all.. anymore.

Oh and trust me, I have an idea about how your feeling at the moment. I have as much of a right to do what I want as much as you do wht you want as well. Seriously, "that's how the world goes 'round".


There you are, probably reading this. Thinking to yourself "Oh yah, I remember that one night. How I explained to you how big you WAS, "YOU WERE". You're misunderstanding ME NOW."

To be fucking honest, sincerely I'll say, you have to take a deeper look from my eyes than yours. Because in reality, you could go your own way. That's life. What can I do, what can they do, the choice is in your hands. The only place I'm trying to get is if ... oh wait, you can figure this part out, you're so smart remember??

And even if THAT's the road you'll go on ahead then shoot, remember mines. Cause if you're there thinking, or if it has ever crossed your mind, that I'm a hypocrite and all the things that came out of MY mouth didn't mean shit, then you should fucking take a deeper look in the mirror. That's only IF you go and do what you want..



Mmm.. I believe that's not what you want..
Because in reality baby, you're waaay better than that.

"Once in a..."

I dreamt about you. I haven't had you in a dream for a long time.
What a coincidence, on the night of a full moon.


All according to:
http://dreammoods.com/

Man
If you are a woman and dream that you are in the arms of a man, suggests that you are accepting and welcoming your stronger assertive personality . It may also highlight your desires to be in a relationship and your image of the ideal man.

Hugging
To dream that you are hugging someone, symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate.

Bunk Beds
To see bunk beds in your dream, represents childhood and innocence. Alternatively, it may refer to diverging and conflicting views of sexuality. You may have difficulties expressing your needs and desires.

High School
To dream about high school, refers to the bounds and friendships that you made while you were in high school. What spiritual lessons have you learned? The dream may also be telling you that you need to start preparing for the real world.

School
To dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about your performance and abilities. If you are still in school and dream about school, then it will naturally serve as a backdrop to your dream world.��
Alternatively, a dream that takes place in school may be a metaphor for the lessons that you are learning from your waking life.�You may be going through a "spiritual learning" experience.

Guilt
To dream that you feel guilty about something, relates to how you are handling your successes and failures or competence and incompetence. You may feel undeserving of your achievements or on the other hand, you may feel that you have let other down. Alternatively, it is also symbolic of repressed and negative feelings that you may have about yourself


GUILTY AS CHARGED

April 7

Tuesday, April 7
Still single? Shame. Doesn't have to be that way you know. If you get yourself out and in the public eye today there is no telling what can happen. Try talking to attractive strangers about the weather. Open your mind and heart, and you will be surprised what walks in.
Lucky Numbers
5, 8, 15, 29, 41, 48
Compatible Sign
Aries

I don't like today. I didn't go to school today. The only good thing I found out was that my english test is probably postponed til Thursday because he had a sub. Anyways, the whole morning, I either slept, ate, or read my english book. How nice. No. In the afternoon, I headed over to Jelly's because I forgot about my superhero project, so I bought a couple comic books. It took a while because I was so picky about which super hero I wanted. Aha. But I found out by that guy Tim or Jim or whatever, that he knew what project I was doing, "The Superhero Genetics, Mom, Dad, Mr Mat's project ". LOL. That was interesting to hear. I guess most of my classmates went to Jelly's for their comic books. After that, me and my mom headed to Pearlridge. I didn't really do anything there, just looked at fXXI, while my mom was shopping in Macys. I talked to Marilyn on the phone the whole time. Then me and my mom ate at Arbys. It was so weird there, I havent had that in foreverrrrr! We headed home, didn't really do anything. I just finished watching Spiderman 2 and the latest ep of KUWTK. Before this, I went on myspace and I saw my horoscope. So erking. OMG. And today, I frcken looked at the moon. It looks like it's going to be a full moon tonight >;[ what a bitch. "You don't know what you have til it's gone" yaw yaw yaw. OK. I'll be on my way towards eating my feelings.

OH BTW, I'm in neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed of a new phone. My fckn trackball broke. So, if any of you guys out there want to help me get some hook ups on a tmobile phone, heeyy! Please and thanks!

BOO-WHOOO

Why should I give a flyyyyin sh_t about you when don't even care about your family and you put your dumb ass boy first before anyone including yourself.

I know this is harsh but seriously, if you knew how I feel, you'd understand.

I actually tried once

By the looks of it, I'll never know.

“I try to talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. So I don’t. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel - like how I miss you and especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart - locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too… but I’ll never know."


- Anonymous

Booster Seat?

The other day, I went to the doctor cause my mom wanted to visit my Aunty or whatever and I was curious about my height. WWHYYYYY? Because I remember talking to my girls about our heights and stuff. Then Mary told me that her doctor said that she's 4'11" and I was like "Whaaaat, I'm 4'11", but your like an inch or two taller than me, how can that be?" So like we all just left it there.

Sooooo at the doctor's, my mom's friend checked my height for me, ha. I found out that I'm fricken 4'10" how sad. Haha. Then I remember my sister telling me that she saw a commercial about booster seats for childrens. Then she was saying that I need a booster seat and what not because I'm 4'10". Lol. BUTTTTTTTT I seached up that commercial, and looooky here!







Thank gaaaaaaaaaaawd. So shame if I need that. ANYWAY, that was just something I wanted to share with ya. K BYE! :]

Hide and seek

"I rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I'm not."

I don't need you and your white horse to save me. I'm on my own ride.

We'll see who's gonna get it. We'll see who's reaaallly got it in the bag.

Whoever you are; Come out, come out, wherever you are..

Head Over Heals

How typical of me! Jeeeeeeeez marvie.

:X

I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS.

What's there to rush? If you really wanted this to last.

Fuck this. I'm not gonna be "just another girl" you mess with.

Boy, you don't even know who your messing with.

Identity Theft

THAT BITCH WHO HACKED MY OLD PAGE IN JAN '08
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=22185025
STILL USES THAT THING! WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT.

;]

CO - WINK - KA - DINK!

"Friday, March 20
You may feel like your prayers are going unanswered today. You are pushing too hard to make something happen. The prayer needs time to grow or manifest. Focus on living life one day at a time right now - the answer will come when you are ready to hear it. "

OMG. So far, today was sucha up and down thing! Buuuuuuuut I just got home from school and I feel soooo much better than how I was feeling in 5th pd. I'm SOOOOOO happy :] What a great way to end 3rd quarter and start spring break!

New Goal: Be more patience.

Q: WHY!?!?!?!??! A: BECAUSE I'M A VERY IMPATIENCE GIRL.

And I feel like it'll take, this ONE, to teach me how to....... ;]

----------------------------------------------
MARCH 31, 2009 (UPDATE ON THIS ONE)

I should've known. ^^^^^^^^ Fuck it! How stupid of me.

FRONTIN

If your gonna be a bitch about it and act up,

whether you give a fuck or not,

whether you act it out or not,

whether you front it or not,

Be fucking nice about it, please.

I'm not gonna do it for nothing, stupid.

Cut out your cockyness and recgonize who your about to talk to.

Man up.

I have a problem

It's 2:39am.

I'm sucha procrastinator.

Just finished up all my big projects thats due tomorrow.

√ 3 pg Reaction Paper for World History

- This could've been finished on Feb. 1st, right after I came home from the visitation.

√ 6 pgs of explaning 2 different poems for English

- This could've been finished on Tuesday.

√ Lit Circle for English

- This could've been finished earlier today.

√ Video Project Ugly for Health (Just a few more interviews)

- This could've been done in February!

For some weird reason, I realized that I can't do my homework during the afternoon. It's stupid, yeah I know that. But for some reason, I feel more concentrated at night!

I need help. It messes up my sleep, foreal.

Schooool

schmooooooooooool.

I HATE Tuesdays and Thursdays.

The rest of the week is gonna be a bitchhhhhhhh!

Hopefully Friday, afterschool, will make it up.

IT SUCKS

I secretly thought that you had IT in you for IT. You almost had it.... so what now? I guess now, it could've, it would've, when it should've, it's allllllllllllll up to you. It's all in your hands, where allllllllll of IT/THIS, could go.

But then again, if it doesn't go where I'd like it to go.. then shit. Wtf was all of that then, right?! And then again, this shows me that you couldn't see through me. Soo fuck it, right. Give it up if you like.

3/8

XP Crazy night.

Anyway, today was interesting. 

Went to 9:oo mass at St. Judes with my parents.

My dad took me shoppping.

Made brownies.

"Yogurtland" LOL

Then chilled at starbucks.

WELLLLLL ANYWAY. Before I chilled at starbucks, I was suppose to hang with Will and Kevin. But nooooo. They didn't wanna pick me up. They wanted me to walk to Blazin Steaks because they were busy playing pool over there! XP But nah, I didn't. Lol. It was like raining thats why. But anyway, Starbucks was chill. Betttttttter than playing pool! Ahahahha, jk.

But yeeeeeeeah. I'm suppose to be checking my homework. Ha. But no. BIG DORA called me, so I'm gonna talk to BIG DORA now. Then go to sleep. K BYE.

Sweet talker

Sweet talkin is soo middle school. Wtf is up your ass. Wasting time, just bug off already. Hahahaa. ANYWAY. I think I'm getting use to this :] .. but I still need to get rid of that, that, and that >:|

K. So school is super packed with work right now and I'm not soo productive. Yesterday, I took home my group's World History project so that I could just finish it myself. Surpringly, I didn't stress so much about it. Usually I'd be so over the top lazy about it. But I just did it. It wasn't too hard, I just got distracted alot. Plus, I forgot about my English homework, so I did that too. It just flew byyyyyy. By the time I was all done with what I planned to finish, it was already like 230 in the morning! And my goodness, ookay. So, if you watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose, there's parts where she wakes up at 3am right!? I had like a super fast dream about her stalking me, and when I woke up, I saw that it was 300! How frckn ironic. But whatever, I just went back to sleep. Then I woke up at 530 because all I had to finish up was printing out my information for my World History project. Soooooo if you calculate how many hours I slept lastnight, you should've got 3. Haha. The day went by, I was tired. But it didn't really bother me because I have a 3 day weekend to look forward to, you knooooow!? So today, the first period of my day, BUSTED. Everyone. "I don't know why Mr.'s mad, 'first the worst, second the best'!" MHMMM. But it's okay, I don't really have to worry about anything because of what I found out after school. Afterschool was interesting. I chilled with Cherline and Bradley. We just sat around and stuff. I left around 400? When I got home, I slept for about an hour or 2. Then relaxxxxxxed. I didn't have anything planned for the rest of the night, so I just stayed home. Hopefully tomorrow's plans go through >:]

K. I'm done for the night.

Lately

Beeeeeen doing my own thing! It's crazy. Who knows. This can go on forever. Haha. Sucks to be me, sucks to be you. With these things going through my head, I'm not gonna be choosing. I'm wise enough see that if people want to stay, they'll stay. As for them, especially as for you; Them. You. Never gonna know. Either way, either fffffffffffffffffffffing way.

Promise

I just realized.. A year went by. WOW. Ahahhaa. I felt like today was someone's birthday. But nah.  A year went by. One promise made. I've been told that since I hold this "grudge" upon promises, I'm held back by alot. Like.... I lose ALOT just by not making promises. It is true. I'm not gonna deny that or anything, shoot. But the last time I was like that was about 2 years ago, AND that was when I waaaas making them promises you know? I thought about it alot, and damn, I remember looking back at myself telling my homegirls that being in a relationship takes WORK. And I guess lately, my mind has been convincing myself that I'm wrong. 

HA. So gay. Well. I'll update this later. Time to go. Haaaaaaaaha.

Vagina Day.

Valentine's Day.


Don't gotta worry about having a valentines.
Cause it's gay and I'm not even gonna
be anywhere near here on that day =)


Plus, my homies show me love everyday.
Valentine's Day won't make a difference. Haaaaaaha.

-Aceyalone

Me? I'd rather be undefined,
not underestimated nor undermined.
I'm underlined as the underdog
under the influence of time.

You don't know

"Sometimes we let affection go unspoken, 

Sometimes we let our love go unexpressed, 

Sometimes we can't find words to tell our feelings, 

Especially towards those we love the best."

What is it?

Is it FOR ME? or WITH ME?

Let me know... 

.. or let me find out the hard way, maybe as in the best way?,

which is letting me find out by myself.

WHICH I've been doing for the past 2 years.. 

finding out 'things' by myself.

I wouldn't want that cause... IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE.

CRAY Z

You ended up hating them. But you're not gonna end up hating me.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!!?
Because I'm not gonna let what happened to them, happen to me!

Make your move, stupid. 

When you do, you just set yourself up in a place 

where you'll end up regretting.






I'm not like them. 

You should've known that in the first place.

Funny Pt. 2

It's funny how I realized that I don't miss 

how I use to be a couple months ago.

And how it's weird that I'm diggggin' it.

Sucks to be me, huh?.......... NOT!! ;P

Cheeesy

but true.

SAGITTARIUS

Thursday, January 1

Your life just has to contain some fun. It would be against the laws of nature and justice for you to have such aspects and waste them all on working or chores. Make sure you get out into the fresh air and sunshine. It's party time, get out and boogie! You do need to have a bit of a break from the "rat race".

Talk about SEXY

PLEASSSEEEEEEE, your not even close.

But HEY. It'sssssss all yours. Small and scrawny. 

I am/was always good with or without it ;)